Confusion Can Be Your Friend
Today I woke up feeling confused. Life is going well, I have been having breakthroughs and progress in my business and yet I sometimes wonder if I am really heading in the direction I want to go. This confusion at first seems like a bad thing. It makes you question the actions you think you ‘should’ be doing. You can get stuck in analysis paralysis.
Because I was so confused I took time this morning to work out exactly where my energy was, what was creating the confusion. Was there a discrepancy between my spiritual and material values. I took time to journal and then to seek out some wiser minds then mind. I came across two great quotes which described my conundrum and the positive way to look at it.
“Only idiots fail to contradict themselves three times a day.” Friedrich Nietzche
“creative people contain contradictory extremes; instead of being an individual, each of them is a multitude.” Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi
Wonderful, I am not an idiot. My confusion means that I am an intelligent person who questions the status quo, who is able to bring flexibility to what I do and how I do it. My challenge is ways to bring the deep, philosophical, always thinking and questioning part of me to the routine, systems and consistent practises needed to grow a business long term.
Confusion is not a pleasant feeling; I have certainly had the “Bugger it, I quit” moments, followed very soon after it by the absolute conviction that I do not want to do full-time work that is only benefitting another persons bottom line. To be tied to their time table and expectations. Some how I will work out every part of this puzzle. I will show up every day and do the actions that move me in the direction I want to go. To build a business that helps everyday people get past fear, dysfunctional families, low self-worth and low self-esteem so that they can have a greater slice of this pie called the lucky country. I will find ways to get paid for the value I can bring, and I will also honour the material side of me that knows I am worthy and desiring of wealth in my own right.
One thing I would love is to know that I am not the only person who sometimes feels confusion. Please share your story in the comments section.