Confusion Can Be Your Friend

May 12, 2016 Thoughts

confusionToday I woke up feeling confused.  Life is going well, I have been having breakthroughs and progress in my business and yet I sometimes wonder if I am really heading in the direction I want to go.  This confusion at first seems like a bad thing.  It makes you question the actions you think you ‘should’ be doing.  You can get stuck in analysis paralysis.

Because I was so confused I took time this morning to work out exactly where my energy was, what was creating the confusion.  Was there a discrepancy between my spiritual and material values.  I took time to journal and then to seek out some wiser minds then mind.  I came across two great quotes which described my conundrum and the positive way to look at it.

“Only idiots fail to contradict themselves three times a day.”  Friedrich Nietzche

“creative people contain contradictory extremes; instead of being an individual, each of them is a multitude.”   Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi

Yin And Yang Symbol Wonderful, I am not an idiot.  My confusion means that I am an intelligent person who questions the status quo, who is able to bring flexibility to what I do and how I do it.  My challenge is ways to bring the deep, philosophical, always thinking and questioning part of me to the routine, systems and consistent practises needed to grow a business long term.

Confusion is not a pleasant feeling; I have certainly had the “Bugger it, I quit” moments, followed very soon after it by the absolute conviction that I do not want to do full-time work that is only benefitting another persons bottom line.  To be tied to their time table and expectations.  Some how I will work out every part of this puzzle.  I will show up every day and do the actions that move me in the direction I want to go.  To build a business that helps everyday people get past fear, dysfunctional families, low self-worth and low self-esteem so that they can have a greater slice of this pie called the lucky country.  I will find ways to get paid for the value I can bring, and I will also honour the material side of me that knows I am worthy and desiring of wealth in my own right.

One thing I would love is to know that I am not the only person who sometimes feels confusion.  Please share your story in the comments section.

Cheers

Maryanne